But then, this morning, our beloved Neo showed us he was in pain. Mark immediately carted him off to the vet. The news isn't good. A large mass was discovered. Probably hemagiosarcoma, the same cancer that took our beloved Luke, of Luke's Tale.
That combined with the passing of two other beloved family members this year crushed me. I had been holding up until the news about Neo this morning. My heart is breaking once again.
Then, I recalled a line from John Irving's Hotel New Hampshire. "Sorrow always floats." In it, the family is moving and flying to Europe. They take the family dog , Sorrow, whom they couldn't bear to lose, so they had a taxidermist stuff him after he passed away. To be safe, this large family takes two different airplanes, splitting up so that if there's a plane crash, some of them will survive. Inevitably, the plane with Sorrow, along with other family members, crashes. Irving describes the stuffed animal Sorrow floating among the wreckage. Thus "Sorrow always floats," hit me today.
Death is a journey we will all take, but that's no real comfort to anyone at the loss of loved ones. They say tragedy always comes in threes. For us, this year, it certainly has - Mark's mom, his step-mom, and now most certainly, Neo.
I am sorry if this brings you down. I'm a writer, and I'm writing out my pain. That's one of the ways that I cope. So, what is the point of this message? Hold your loved ones close to you. Cherish every moment. Sorrow takes us by surprise and floats into our lives when we least expect it. Mark and I certainly didn't expect the sorrow of losing three beloved family members in the last six months.
Hopefully until a better time,